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[29 Apr 2005|03:45pm] |
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me+ariel+kelly+taylor=operation ptmorrbakha!
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| for better, or for worse? |
[23 Apr 2005|08:19am] |
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so...sunday i got to go to church with travis.
monday= school, then no travis, no anything
tuesday= math TAKS , me and travis getting to hang out, uncaught =)
wednesday= got out of school at 9:30, went up to dp with starkey,devyn and taylor, surprised travis at his car =). hung out with him, uncaught, and then church.
thursday=ss TAKS, travis came over, and then his mom caught him over here...grr...so he got his car taken away FOR A FREAKING MONTH. gay, but we can handle it. his mother is not my favorite person right now. she talks a lot of shit bout me to him...
yesterday= science taks , dad went and picked up travis, we hung out for a long time and it was so fun, especially laying out in my yard on a blanket looking at the sky that was practically VOID of stars lol. but i loved it, and i love him. 2 months and 6 days today =)
today= on the agenda, painting my room and going job hunting with travis.
=). ♥
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[17 Apr 2005|01:42am] |
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today started out as a good day. travis and i were supposed to meet up with some friends at kemah...but we got some wrong directions so we ended up staying in pasadena. so i bought some new shoes considering mine were really old and messed up, and then got my hair cut. really short. then i went tanning and travis did too, he's so cute...then we hung out until his mom called...then he had to leave...so my friend brandon came and got me and we went to leah's with her , craig, nick, and nathan. then we went to a party and there were a bunch of people that i don't like, and vice versa. so me and brandon left and i called travis and he said he was going home so we went to his house and brandon left and i was there out in his yard and i was like i don't want you to get in trouble cause i'm not supposed to be here...it was 9:30 and he said his parents wouldn't be home until 11 but i said no just take me home...so he did then he left...so i called him on his cell and he didn't pick up so i thought "what the hay, i'll just call his house , it is a tad late but he's the only one there" so i called...and his mom picked up saying he wasn't home yet...then yeah i called him later and he picked up...he told me his parents wanted to force us to break up...but he said no that's stupid...so they set some "limits" on us...
limit 1= he can't see me on school nights
limit 2= he can't talk to me on the phone or computer after 10 pm.
limit 3= no PDA.
limit 4= his dad has to approve everywhere he drives.
and then...he told me to call him around 11:15...i did. his phone was off. his mom took it. i am tempted to hate her. i did nothing wrong...he is not failing in school he has all A's...he's not doing drugs he's not doing bad things, what does seeing me have to do with anything?...this sucks. it's our 2 months as of now...i won't let them mess this up! just because i'm not rich and snobby out the ass, doesn't give them the right to do this
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[12 Apr 2005|04:00pm] |
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friday = spring show, brandy stayed the night. ♥
saturday= church stuff with travis. went to mission of yahweh in downtown houston and painted. good times.
that night= saira's party...interesting and kind of fun but i was being all anti-social so yeah , i suck.
sunday=church basically all day. fun. =P
monday(yesterday)=school. travis came over. =D i love him...haha orange , vanilla!
today= school, blah suckage.
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| words like violence, break the silence |
[08 Apr 2005|07:03am] |
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Wednesday= church. =)
Yesterday= Not a damn thing
Today is a half day at school so I'm gonna get home, work out, take a shower, then Brandy's coming over and we're going to the Spring Show at PMHS. Me and Johnny are gonna wave a Mexican Flag around and be like "Go Teresssa" LMAO Good times to come. Oh and Brandy my fiancè is going to stay the night =D! Travis I will be missing you. Hopefully we'll hang out Saturday , but Sunday for sure!
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| update. woot. |
[06 Apr 2005|03:47pm] |
Haven't updated in a few days so here goes.
Monday- Insanely weird. I got home from school, ate chinese with my dad , went to CVS and saw Evan and her mom , called Travis, and he said he wanted to see me...but...he had to go to school for some science taks tutorial thing and he wanted me to go with him, lol, so I agreed but felt kind of weird considering that even go to his school lol. We went by hius house to get his brother for baseball practice and it was so hilarious , Travis's mom had to call Steven like 8 times to get ready for baseball and he just slept right through it lol...Then we went to Deer Park High School for that Physics tutorial...here's the funny thing about that besides the fact I don't go there...I'm not even in physics. Haha but I am most likely going to Deer Park next year guys! I told my dad and he said he's taking it into consideration. So that's most likely a yes! Man it's huge...pmhs is like the size of their bathroom lol. After that taks thing we went to Taco Bell and I saw my ex William that I hadn't seen in like 2 years! He was being nice though and we talked for a moment so it was all good. After this...we went to Travis's ex's house :/ Eden's. She was nice...but I felt awful strange and how they acted even though I know they didn't even go out hardly 2 days hah...it was awkward for me and I told him and he said I have nothing to worry about that he just hadn't seen her in forever but I just can't explain why I felt like that...Nathan took this wooden dildo thing from Eden's lol it is still sitting in Travis's car. End of story.
Tuesday - Dance practice until 5. Actually kind of fun. Then...Travis came over and that was all nice...and the thing that made the happiest...when he left he hugged me and kissed me and said "I love you"...I love him too.
Today- School was it's usual gay self. I hope hope hope I am going to Deer Park next year! Pray for it! I have church tonight woohoo! Comments people come on!
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| tired, but happy. |
[04 Apr 2005|06:55am] |
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Travis told me he thinks he loves me.
♥
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| don't you dare forget. |
[03 Apr 2005|07:13pm] |
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i am not special i am not unique i am not interesting i am just merely here.
why is my self esteem so low..=/...
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| a hiccup in paradise. |
[03 Apr 2005|04:49pm] |
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So yesterday did turn out good =D! Me and Travis went to Discount Tire Co. to get the leak in his tire fixed and while we were waiting inside we were acting like we were related and we were all over each other haha everybody was like WTF?!?!? hahaha...good times. Then we went back to his house while Nathan took what felt like forever to take a shower..then we picked up Nathan's annoying ass friend Stefany and went to La Porte High School to watch Dobie , La Porte, Deer Park , and Pasadena Memorial's UIL One Act Plays...they were pretty good. It was fun. I saw a lot of people I knew there and my ex...(Awkward lol)After that on the way to going back to Stefany's so she could talk to her mom she was being and annoying whiny little bitch and me and Travis kept yelling at her and Nathan to shut the hell up but it was no use...luckily , her mom wouldn't let her go out to eat with us at Flaming Wok so it was just me , Travis, and Nathan. Then we went to Chelsea's house and I was spitting mints out at her like bullets , Travis stole a shit load from Flaminh Wok...then Travis dropped me off...and funny thing , I missed him the second he left =( It's always like that. But I really like him...and yeah , you said it , I kinda love him...but I don't tell him...I wish this wasn't so onesided. Our 2 months is exactly 2 weeks from today =D I'm excited. Well..off to make some CD's . comment people I miss you.
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Last night was all right. Travis came over and we were gonna go to Teaworks to see Brandy but she couldn't go =( that made me sad. But..today is a gorgeous day outside and hopefully when he comes over we'll go somewhere fun...Ugh I just woke up I need to brush my teeth. I'll update later.
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| wishing it was friday |
[31 Mar 2005|01:22pm] |
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but it's thursday. and i am out of school early because i feel weird and i have to go to the doctor at 3...=/...i don't really wanna but i need to. i feel a bit better than yesterday. last night was fun. church , and casa ole , and driving around and to chelsea's last night with travis. good times. i love her. well...i should make this entry short. i love all you lj nerds. =P
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| i wish i was a bird , i could fly far far away... |
[30 Mar 2005|04:02pm] |
so...i am very unhappy...
i was with travis and his mother and his sister at casa olè , and travis also has his father and 4 brothers , all blood related and everything and they were talking bout past family vacations and outings and such and how they're going to hawaii next year and they way they talked to each other oh it made me cry cause their family doesn't have hardly a problem at all...but most of all is...he has a family...and it made me so sad cause i wish i did...my brother's very violent and has an anger problem, his grades have slipped down to failing and he is most likely is going to boot camp , my step mother is crazy. her doctor even told her she needed to see a psychiatrist, but she refuses. my dad is depressed and i think the only reason he won't leave her is because he is afraid of being alone. again. in june , it will be 2 years since i have seen my mother...i don't even know where she is , or how she's doing , or anything. and for some reason, all of this is hitting me very hard lately and i feel ever so alone...i just thought i'd update people that actually read this on how i'm feeling. today was good because me and lora talked and laughed a lot at school and it reminded me of old times , the good times. i love her so much, but my friend count is becoming less and less...and it hurts a whole lot but that's just the way it's going to be i guess. travis is wonderful. lora is wonderful. but i think to myself , the only times i'm happy is if i am with him or her or writing a poem or story or something...school is also a great escape...but my heart aches for not the love you find in a friend or boyfriend , for a family..i wonder why i am still wishing because i'm already 15 years old almost 16...not much time left to be a kid so i wonder why i bother. i used to wish to have kids but how can i be a mother when i never had one of my own? i was 3 years old when mine left. well i guess this is my vent for the day , comment if you care to.
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| mexicans are hot. |
[28 Mar 2005|01:11pm] |
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today's been boring. i went driving around deer park (WHICH HAS SCHOOL TODAY HAHAHAHAHAHA) with my grandma cause yeah i just have my permit but i'm getting better. i feel like a fat ass. but that's nothing new. um i miss a lot of people but i'm beginning to see who my real friends are...and it's quite a shock. but meh i like it. and i <3 my Travis...stupid deer park and their going to school-ness. I feel sick i hate milk. well i'm gonna go...comment hoes.
my fiancè brandy rocks.
my boyfriend travis does too ♥
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bored. extremely bored. so maybe i should do an actualy post this time , eh? i can't mention some of yesterday for good reasons...HAH...but yesterday was a sad day i cried a lot i guess even though with my wonderful lovely boyfriend travis i feel like i have no friends even though i know i do , at school we talk on the internet and phone but outside of school it's always travis travis travis or no one at all...(by the way , i like the travis travis travis part =) ♥ ) i wasn't exactly in my right mind last night and i told him that i loved him but afterwards when i started feeling better i told him that i actually think i do but i won't tell him like a lot of girls do to their guys , every 5 seconds OH I LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU...cause then to me i don't think it means anything anymore...and it made me sad because...he couldn't say it back...and that's okay...we've been together for a month a week and 3 days...not what you'd call a long time but it's a start and he makes me happy...so yeah...last night we were making out in front of matt,robert,guy,nathan,and stefany and robert and nathan said it was inhumane for us to be making out in front of matt because he was my ex lol i was like YEAH FROM LIKE 2 YEARS AGO ROFL LMAO. what a bunch of weirdos. i wanna make this the longest post ever in the history of fucking time or did that make sense? LOL. damn dude i gotta pisssssssssss.....you know what song is awesome? the theme song to aqua teen hunger force i love it too bad i don't have cable anymore so i can't watch it =( but lisa sent it to me via aim so it's all good good. =) i'm thinking of adding people back to my friends list =) i deleted everybody cause i was in a really weird mood but i think i'll live now...yay no school tomorrow but unfortunately tuesday when we go back...i have a shitload of homework and i have to drive for drivers ed from 4-6 tuesday BLAH...i wish i could drive already or have a job or something because i need money and i need a way of transportation for myself (not including travis or nick or my dad haha) well i love all you bitches and hoes and i'm sorry if this isn't the longest post ever but hey my life's not that exciting so i'll try better next time mmkay?
I WANT A FUCKING MUFFIN!
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check it out. i updated. interesting , eh?
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